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[ If she were honest, it’s not a moment of strength that brings her back to Oriphi’s home. It’s weakness. A horrible, sinking loneliness: Aerith does not do well with the best, so she rushes ahead, at any cost. Today, it’s probably unrecommended to be running around, picking fruit, dressing herself, or anything like that with such an injury, but she also isn’t too sure she’d forgive herself for letting Eustace think she’s bedridden over him.

It’s been mere days since, but she still knows the way, has it mapped out in her mind as clearly as the walk to her mother’s house in the slums from the abandoned church, and she takes to it easily. Last night, she’d laid alone and thought about all the ways that she wishes she could have fought differently, or all the things she wished she said instead. Today, she walks with her head held high in the sunlight, hair tied back with a strip of pink fabric from a tattered, bloodied dress. She knows four times, melodious, humming a tune like nothing’s occurred, and at her feet is a basket stuffed with apples.

…and in her hands? Well, it’s a drink carrier with drinks from Dreambucks. She wasn’t sure what to get, so a trio of milk teas will have to do. Just in case fruit isn’t Diluc’s thing, you know? If he’s home, at all. ]

Heya. Special delivery! Bet you haven’t had one of these in a few days, huh?

[ There had hardly been enough time to get everyone at very least introduced to each other that night, much less so to get acquainted. There was too much going on, too much at stake. But in the days since that harrowing night at the cliffside, Oriphi can’t help but feel that she wishes she had met Aerith any other way.

As it is, Ori feels as though she’s only just met the woman, and the tiefling has already failed her in so many ways. Her memories of the night are hazy at best, after a certain point, but she’ll never forget what it was like to finally be brought into a full state of awareness after drifting in and out and looking on in horror as Eustace took down one person after another - to find blood dripping across the ice, a limp form covered in red and pink pinned against the wall.

How nice would it have been if they had met instead at the Wild Harvest? Maybe Ori could have stopped by and ran into Aerith there, and Tifa could have introduced them. Then Ori could have asked Aerith about all the things that Tifa has told her about that she's never heard of before, like teevees and karaoke…

Then again, this is just the way, in Ori’s life. An adventurer rarely gets to meet someone in nice circumstances - more often than not, people get thrown into the same shit together, and come out of it with some tenuous, nebulous form of acquaintanceship…

Still, Ori’s surprised to open her door to find Aerith standing there, smiling with some gifts in tow. She had just been planning to do the just the same for everyone, though her gifts are going to be a lot less fun. If the various potion-making supplies scattered across a table in the kitchen behind her and a pot bubbling away on the stove is any indication… ]

Miss Aerith…!

[ She peers down at the milk teas. ]

W-What? Did you bring those for us?

[ Rude it may be, but she's peeking over Ori's shoulder, trying to see into the house and take stock of her mental state. Chaotic, she deduces, though perhaps that isn't her place to say. It's true they don't know one another at all, but it bothers Aerith little. A stranger is just a friend you haven't made yet, in many respects, and it's not like she hadn't shoved herself into Tifa's life in much the same way. Maybe some day she'll hear about it, but today, it's milk tea day.

Holding up the carrier, she invites herself in, and decides not to mention the state of the kitchen that she can see. ]

Just Aerith is okay. I had to bring something. My mom taught me not to go over without something. Ah, I can hear her now...

[ She definitely can't. ]

You drink tea?

[ Ori lets Aerith step through, easily, because she has no reason to deny this c heery woman anything. But the tiefling certainly can’t help but look a bit… bewildered at Aerith’s demeanor given the state she’d seen the woman in not very long ago. Ori nearly forgets to answer her question, and she startles when she realizes it while closing the door behind her. ]

Oh! Yes, I love tea. Milk tea is a bit… newer to me, but I like it.

[ She glances at the drink carrier again. ]

Is the third one for Diluc…? That’s so kind of you, Aerith. He’s at the winery right now, but I’ll make sure he gets his later…

[ With a nod, she confirms Ori's suspicion, leaving the gift on the counter after gingerly rearranging some empty would-be potion bottles. A moment of silence falls over her as she looks around, making notes of where everything is and where it was before. Is she planning to clean this all up before he gets home? Does he know the state she's in? She tilts her head, then looks back to Ori, blinking. ]

You're staring.

[ It's possible she wasn't, in truth. It's just an easy way to call her out. People open up more when they're a bit embarrassed, and Ori seems terribly polite. It's cute. No one could blame her, though, because it is true that someone with such grievous injuries must be shocking to see barely a few days later. She'd nearly died. Oh, well. A problem for past Aerith, you see. ]

It's for him, yep. I was a little worried about making sure he'd have something, too. Gotta thank him for his part, also. And for taking care of you afterward.

[ She's teasing. She tilts her head, and waits for a response. If Ori gets the feeling that hearing her talk is all Aerith wants... well, she'd be right. ]

[ Aerith is right, Ori is staring, and she’s also right to think that calling her out on it would embarrass her. Predictably, the tiefling’s cheeks flush, deepening the lilac and rose of her skin. If not for the fact that Ori’s normally healthy well of dreamotion energy has been drained as a result of their encounter with Eustace’s noctaere form, there might have been a few more outward manifestation of that embarrassment, too…

Getting up after a fight, casting a few healing spells, and getting on one’s life isn’t out of the norm, she thinks. It makes sense for Aerith - whom she’d also seen casting some healing spells - to be walking around like she hadn’t just been impaled on a giant spike of ice the other night. But there were so many more things about that night, so many more injuries that didn’t necessarily spill blood or tear at skin, too. She’s concerned about the near-death encounter, the nightmarish visions, along with everything else they were subjected to. And above all, she must be tired. Ori knows she is, too. ]

Ah, that’s… That’s really thoughtful of you. I’m sure he’ll appreciate it. He has a bit of a sweet tooth, actually, so this is perfect—

[ Oops. Not Ori spilling Yet Another Emotionally Repressed Grumpy Man Diluc’s most closely-guarded secret of liking sweets. Anyway— ]

Anyway. I was just in the middle of making some healing potions. [ obviously… ] To give to everyone. If you don’t mind staying for a little bit, I can get a few bottles ready for you.

[ Fortunately (?) for Diluc, that information is being noted and stored away for future use. She's in his house, after all. Might as well make herself polite as possible, even if she's teasing his beloved. So Aerith, with a crinkly little smile, gets closer to Ori, and pretends she heard nothing. It's a small kindness, she's sure. ]

Can I help? [ It doesn't look too different from cooking, she notes, but she looks to Ori for approval. ] You worried about me? Thanks, but I'll be okay. Don't I look it?

[ She even raises her arms, giving a little twirl to get the full experience. "Used to it" is probably the best way to put it, sure, but she's almost blasé about the whole ordeal. Besides, she's spent a lot of time just casting Prayer over herself for the last few days. She'll be... fine, most likely. ]

It's way more important everyone else gets these. Two sets of arms is better than one, right?

[ Alright, so she's looking for an excuse to stay, still not admitting it verbally. Oops. ]

[ Honestly, Ori can’t judge Aerith for getting on as she has, when she herself has also been cheating by relying on healing spells to get by. So she watches Aerith and all of her gestures of grandeur, all meant to convince her that she’s really okay. It works, at least in so far as her injuries, but in spite of that, Ori can’t help but worry. Especially when she can remember so vividly how Aerith looked as Ori came back to, as Phantom came and brought her, bloodied and unconscious, to the tiefling. ]

Well, you look in tip-top shape, of course…

[ But, from one healer to another… Healing spells can’t close over wounds that don’t bleed.

In any case, Aerith doesn’t need an excuse to stay, in Ori’s book. She seems to want to help with the potions, but Ori thinks they can get to that in just a bit. For now, she takes a moment to take up one of the cups of milk tea, and then another to hold out to Aerith. ]

Let’s sit and have our milk tea first?

[ "Tip-top shape" is about all she can boast, right now. She smiles at Ori, pleased with the medical assessment, and tilts her head with curiosity, as if she were no different from one of the corgis. Poor thing must have been working her ass off all this time, trying to support everyone around here on her own; there's only so much one person can do, and two healers with a "get up and go" attitude about injuries certainly can at least try to lighten that load.

See, she's sympathetic.

Aerith takes the offered cup, staring at Ori's hands, picking up all the tell-tale signs up overwork in them, if she can. Anything that gives hint to how long she's been working, how hard she's been at it. Then, she sits right down, as asked, the skirt of her dress puffing up just a bit as she does. She sits with a bit more force than intended— it's more like a delicate little flop, and favors the other side of her body, the side that isn't healing. It's all a weird little dance to avoid putting any pressure on her shoulder.

She sips.

She smiles again. ]

You're... really working yourself to the bone, aren't you?

[ There certainly are signs of overworking: little cuts and nicks where she’d slipped because her body wasn’t moving the way her mind thought it was, a burn or two where she’d accidentally touched the pot after forgetting that it was quite hot… small injuries that she hadn’t quite gotten around to healing up just yet. It feels so silly to do so, when the others are contending with much worse injuries…

But, much like the way that Aerith assesses Ori’s hands, Ori watches carefully as Aerith seats herself in a very particular way… They’re both doing their best, aren’t they? That’s really all she can make of this visit, so far. They’re both healers checking on one another and dancing around all of the ways that they might be hurting yet both wanting to take care of others instead of themselves.

She sips on her milk tea all the same. At Aerith’s words, however, she’s quick to shake her head. ]

This isn’t anything, really. Diluc’s been helping get ingredients when he can, so that really helps…

[ She peers up at the other woman, blinking at her. ]

And what about you…? Don’t tell me you went apple-picking right after all of that?

[ For someone so used to people watching, or simply being watched, Aerith still misses that Ori's observing her in the same way a doctor might. Her back straightens up, then, she tries to look like her posture has been corrected, and just smiles, glibly. She knows what Ori means, and the tiefling is like a summer wind in that regard. You never know how badly you needed that breeze until it hits you, but it also makes you far more aware of the heat. ]

I have my ways of procuring some apples.

[ She titters, looks out into the room, and continues in a breezy little tone. ]

What about you, Ori? How are you doing?

[ An empty bottle sits in the kitchen, unattended, ready to be filled. Straight and tall, like a soldier ready for battle. Aerith's gaze settles on it for a moment, sympathy flooding her eyes before her line of sight flits back over to Ori. ]

[ Aerith’s response does manage to startle a soft chuckle from Ori, and she gives the other woman a grateful look. In the back of her mind is some saying, something about an apple a day keeping the doctor away… Then she watches as Aerith looks around, following her gaze as the empty bottles are examined from a far and with thinly-veiled interest. ]

I…

[ Ori blinks, then looks back at Aerith. She has a feeling that they’ll keep dancing around the topic if she responds dismissively, and she doesn’t want that to happen. Despite having just met the woman, Ori wants so badly to be there for her, to let her see that Ori can be someone to rely on, despite the fact that she feels like she couldn’t be relied on that night. So she draws in a deep breath and exhales it in a sigh, shoulders sagging as if in defeat. ]

I’m a bit… Tired. Sleeping hasn’t been all that easy, and healing spells can only get you so far… Right?

[ With that, at least, she casts a knowing glance. ]

[ She's right. Just like that, Aerith decides it's okay to go in on Ori— the topic has been broached, and she's sure now that she's not going to react poorly. If she knew her a bit better, she might have just immediately launched into it, no punches held back, but this? It's easier. ]

Pretty much. [ Aerith shrugs at this, a little lopsided, but the motion is there. The intent is there. Her lips thin, then, straightening into a line, and she looks aside to the nearest window, weighing her options. ]

You know, I really owe you. For everything.

[ She'd be dead without her, she knows that. ] The tea, the apples, coming to help... Honestly, I just wanted to see you. I'm glad you're in one piece, but if you can't sleep, let me know, okay? We can't do this alone, Oriphi.

Oh, I…

[ Ori trails off, unsure how to really respond to the gratitude and the earnestness of Aerith’s words for a moment. There had been a time in her life when she wouldn’t have been accustomed to such things, but that hasn’t been the case for quite some time now, and especially not in this realm, but still…

She’s only just met Aerith. And yet she already finds herself so grateful for the other woman’s presence, in turn. ]

I will. I’ll let you know. You'll have to let me know if you have trouble sleeping, too. We can message each other on the journals, or go out for a walk, or something like that...!

[ She suddenly feels a bit self-conscious, like she's surprised at herself for talking so much. But still, she smiles and keeps going anyway. ]

But I feel grateful to you, too, Aerith. It was your spell that brought me back. And we truly couldn’t have done it all without you.

[ For a moment, Aerith wonders if Ori has known relief like this before. The sound of someone else’s rambling, the comfort of a home, the loneliness that dissipates into nothing so easily in the presence of someone else. She must have, right? There’s so many complexities about her that she doesn’t know, and Aerith softly smiles, warmth and gratitude playing at her lips. In her hands, the cold tea is starting to sweat, but she pays it no mind. It’s the least of her concerns at the moment. ]

I’ll let you know, but you’ll have to come, even if it’s three in the morning. Got it?

[ A tease is a tease and little else. Aerith laughs, leaning over a little joyously, and she thinks that Ori knows well enough that it’s a little joke, too. But— ]

I’ll come running if you call for me that late. Don’t worry.

[ With a tilt of her head and the smile still in place, she decides that she’ll be getting along just fine with Oriphi. ] I did what I could. I’m glad it worked. I heard the shot, and I was worried about you and Trahearne.

[ A beat passes, though, and Aerith leans in a little. ]

Don’t worry. You can keep talking. I came to hear your voice.

[ There’s something about Aerith’s warm, joyous smile and the sound of her voice that’s so disarming in the best of ways; she feels, at once, like an old friend and a new acquaintance, despite the fact that this is their first time having a proper conversation. Oriphi is honestly used to meeting people who are a little bit prickly on her travels, but most people here in this dream realm have been so friendly. Tifa comes to mind immediately, with the way she had met Ori while she was dreaming about bittersweet memories and managed to guide her through it so gently.

The joking and teasing are exactly what she needs in light of everything. Just a little bit of joy to beat back the shadows, and with that, she feels just a little bit more at ease. Ori can easily see how Aerith and Tifa came to have such a strong bond, and she’s glad that the two have each other here. ]

You’re so sweet, Aerith. Truly. Sometimes I keep odd hours, so you can reach out to at three in the morning, too. I mean it.

[ She leans back in her chair, sitting a bit more comfortably as she absentmindedly wipes at the condensation on her milk tea with the pads of her thumbs. ]

You know, I’ve… Dealt with noctaere and nightmare energy before, but it’s all so different when it’s somebody that you care about. It’s… Not something I hope that any of us experience again, anytime soon.

[ She’s done this before? Perhaps not as involved, not as treacherous, but she’s done this prior to this incident with Eustace, and Aerith is imagining all the ways it could happen again. Her expression twists at the thought, the smile slipping so lightly and easily, not unlike a balloon deflating. Ori twiddles her thumbs along the cup as she explains it and Aerith watches the little drip, drips off the cup, gaze focused.

It is impossible to know what another person has been through unless they tell you. That’s why it’s so important to treasure every moment you get with them, to live life to its fullness next to someone. Aerith inhales, looking sympathetic, and speaks with conviction she knows she shouldn’t have as someone who is new to this realm. So green and fresh in the face, with all the time to spare in the world. ]

When it happens again, we can get through it. We will. Together.

[ There isn’t much that she can offer but her support. She’ll do anything to prove that, alone, is worth something. ]

What happened…? The last time?

[ Ori closes her eyes, and thinks on all of the times she’s faced down noctasers and noctaere and the other nightmarish creatures of this world. Healing Diluc after he had gotten injured fighting with someone going noctaere shortly after they arrived to this realm. Facing one within a dreamscape - and meeting Beatrix because of it. Losing track of Diluc and Thoma in another one, and facing a rather unsettling-looking noctaere after what had up until that point been a wonderful evening. The noctasers on the moon…

The night that she and Thoma nearly lost Diluc.

At length, she draws in a deep, deep breath, exhales, and then swallows thickly; when she next opens her eyes, her gaze falls and stays fixed on a vase filled with yellow and red ranunculus and gladiolus flowers, along with a few lilacs. A bit of a strange color combination, to be sure - but they’re all flowers that remind her of what she has, here - of Thoma and Diluc, even when one of them is gone. ]

Usually, when we face noctaere or similar creatures in dreamscapes and such, they’re… exactly that - creatures. I had never encountered someone turning into one, even though I knew it could happen. But Diluc—

He almost turned, a few months ago. We were barely able to stop him - Thoma and I, I mean. He was our boyfriend. He’s gone from this place now, but… I don’t know if I would have been able to keep Diluc from turning that night without him.

[ Guilt tugs at her once more. ]

Sorry, I don’t mean to keep talking about myself like this… But I guess considering that two of us had a hard time keeping the nightmare energy at bay, it makes sense that so many of us had so much trouble turning someone back who had already turned.

[ In her life, she feels she has been privy to a great deal of deeply personal moments in people's lives. Not by virtue of being there, but by listening to them share their lives with her. She's always been happy to listen, to learn, to support, to feel the bond between her and another person tighten. Ori speaks with gravity in her voice and Aerith is hanging onto her every word, the story and images she weaves like a tapestry bearing her truth. It isn't in the words themselves but the implications of them. He was, for example. No longer. He's gone from this place now. Lost to time and life, the ever-moving ocean that it is, or has something happened to him? Ori doesn't say. Aerith holds her tongue to say a prayer in the hopes it is not the latter. ]

I'm sorry to hear that, Ori.

[ As much as she's noting it down to ask about as soon as their conversation lightens up, Aerith knows it isn't time for her to ask about having two boyfriends. ]

How do we prevent it, then? The nightmare energy getting that bad?

[ She's already thinking of preparations, what to do. Codes to call out, ways to signal to one another. They'll need it. Perhaps this had been, like, a friend accident? But there's no point to taking chances. ]

[ Though she doesn’t suspect that two boyfriends will become the topic of this conversation (at least, for now), somewhere in the back of her mind, she’s thankful that Aerith doesn’t pick that particular detail to hone in on. Instead, she asks a question that has Ori glancing over at her as she hums contemplatively for a few moments. ]

… I’m not sure. I can’t help but wonder about those flowers that Susato brought with her… If they would be effective over time. Maybe there’s something there. But otherwise…

[ Her gaze drifts downward and finds Thoma’s omamori at her hip again, as she looks back on what led them to Diluc’s own near-noctaere experience, and what little she knows of what led up to Eustace’s turning. ]

We have to be more open with each other. There’s so many of us here who do things like lock things up inside, never talk about our feelings, until it becomes a burden that’s too great and too large for any one, or even two people to bear by themselves. We’re all in this together, so why not rely on each other a little more…?

[ It’s not a concrete idea, by any means, but the sentiment is there. And as she looks at Aerith, she thinks with a small smile about how they’ll all be okay, in time, because of people like Aerith who show up with little gestures of kindness, who sits at the table of a near-stranger and listens to her talk on end. ]

Sooo… Therapy.

[ She’s not going to beat around the bush. It makes sense, though, but it drags a question to the forefront of her mind. Has anyone asked the pair of lovebirds about what happened? How things got so twisted? Eustace is so strong and pragmatic, Aerith thinks, and Tifa had been mortally wounded… Something had gone horribly awry, she thinks. No point lying to themselves about the whole ordeal now. They’ve got the battle scars and nightmares to prove it. ]

The dawn flowers, right? Some people are… stubborn. We’ll have to be more forthcoming with them, however... these potions of your’s… think we might be able to make something with the dawn flowers with them? Might be able to stretch the flowers, then.

[ Of course, she could just ask the flowers.

But that would be cheating. ]

[ Aerith’s initial remark draws a somewhat curious look from the tiefling; she knows of healers at home who focus on wounds of the mind and soul rather than the physical, perhaps that’s what she’s referring to… That look brightens, however, in recognition of Aerith’s brilliant idea. ]

That’s… We should give that a try! I wonder if anyone’s tried anything like that before… Maybe they would know, too. The flowers, I mean. Though I can’t say I’ve ever tried to ask a plant if they would be useful in brewing… That would be a little weird, wouldn’t it?

[ She’s certainly talked to trees about this, but it’s different because she’s not taking the entire tree for a potion! ]

But that’s a really, really good idea, Aerith.

[ A little weird, she says, and Aerith notes that she disagrees in her mind. Despite this, the words never come. It’s overcome by something else, a bubbling, churning notion of surprise— she knows there’s no way, simply put, that Oriphi could be like her. She knows, just like she knows with Trahearne, that it’s impossible. This, however, is a little much for her.

Her hand raises to her chest, and she smiles in a way that is at once both sympathetic and curious. Does she dare? She’s spent much of her life dancing with loneliness, the sense of emptiness that can only come from being the very last. Isolated, afraid… ]

That so? You won’t mind if I ask for you then, now, would you?

[ Perhaps Ori will think nothing of it. Perhaps it is just that— nothing. To Aerith, however, it means the world. ]

[ For a few moments, Ori simply blinks at Aerith silently though she remains smiling at the other woman. It’s taking her a moment, it seems, to truly realize what it is that Aerith has just asked.

Although the tiefling has never experienced the kind of loneliness that comes with being the last of any kind… She’s grappled with a different sort of loneliness throughout her life. And here, where she sees many fellow dreamwalkers meet friends of theirs from the same world. She even fell in love with two men who hailed from the same place… But she’s never met someone that she was sure came from her world, too. A different sort of loneliness, to be sure, and Ori would never pretend to know how any one person feels completely, but she can empathize; she is no stranger to that feeling of longing and wanting to belong.

Naturally, she knows based on what she’s seen of Aerith’s magic, that they’re not from the same place. But even if their magic is inherently different, perhaps there are more similarities in what they can do beyond the healing effects of their spells. ]

I… Of course I won’t mind. You can speak with plants, too, Aerith?

[ It may take a moment for her to parse, but Ori hits the nail on the head. Aerith has no way of knowing what’s truly going on in her head, but she gets the inkling that there is a moment of understanding that passes between them, born of something unsaid but known in equal measures. She looks at Ori, tilts her head, and smiles like it’s nothing. It’s the sort of smile that doesn’t match the eyes, the kind that lies.

After a pause, she looks away, to the ground. The smile lingers, though not for long. ]

Would you believe me if I said yes?

[ After all, she doesn’t have horns! ]

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